gardenofdarkness

So been a bit quiet again but who can blame me.
First my parents where in town and I spent time with them and that was great. Did a lot of fun things.
Then last monday night I got a desperate phonecall from Catta and she was going mental alone in Malmö. She wanted to know if I was up for a visit, ofcourse I was.
So tuesday morning she appears outside my door :)
Spent that day in town and had a movie night at home later. All and all we got a lot of time in town shopping and saw some movies during the night.
Also spent a lovely evening in the sun by the water... amazing.
Sadly she had to return home on friday morning as she and Marcus are going to Italy today. Had to get some stuff done before the trip...

Well friday me and Pernilla went out to what was supposed to be just dinner but ended up as more. Kellys again *lol*
We had a blast and also bumped into Thomas again who apperantly is stalking me, his side of the story is the opposite but dont trust him!
Came home and had a nice little phonecall *smiles* that topped all the nice smses.

Have something that I'm really looking forward to right now and maybe wednesday, who knows *smiles*

Will see Pernilla again tomorrow and we are trying to see if there might be a last minute cruise this week. We really need to get away.

I know what I want right now ;)
Oh and looking forward to the Slipknot gig even more now ;)

Today someone special gave me these two amazing flower bouquets so now my flats has this lovely smell of lilys *smiles*
I mean just one would have been enough but two... Am all smiles today.

So we managed to get yet another thursday evening at Kellys ;)
This is turning out to be a great tradition. Last night it was me, Jenny and Linda (The names, HILARIOUS!). Pernilla was going to join us but had to cancel. Jenny was at her best last night and me and Linda got a bit behind which is a new thing for sure.
We had a good time babbling and it was so great to just talk about recent events and laugh hard at how good everything works out. Oh and we ofcouse had the mobile show as always, thats a must. Although this time I had to pass at some parts *lol* Not going there!!!!!

Am going to see Jenny now and go "fika", yay!




Oh and thank you Bret for not being able to keep it together and in your pants!!! Wahey for season 3!!!!!
Yeah Sari we are brainwashed!!! That on top of mental ;)

Skadeglädje är den enda sanna gläden eller hur det nu var *asg*
Riktigt så illa är det ju inte.

All I want to say it... What goes around comes around! *muahahahhaaahahaaaaaaa*
Payback is a bitch. Am just full of thses things today and my face is all smiles. Not that it's not been like that for a long time now it's just that learned something yesterday the just made my smile even bigger. Although I think it's not over yet. There will be more news of this kind coming my way.

Had a really really nice monday ;) although some people need to think a bit less for their own good. And some need to learn that there are many different ways of smart. Just cos you read all the books in the world dont mean that you are smart, far from. And some really lack serious people skills!!! So cought up in their own mind and thoughs that they are completely missing the world pasing by and the people around them. Just a little more attentions to the world and they would see all the different shades and they might just be able to see things coming and see things as they are. Also be able not to judge people and go by some strange mould that they have in their mind. We are all very different which means we react and act differently, all of us.
In a way I really feel sorry for these people as they in a way see themselves as better that others and yet still they are the ones that fall short in life as they wont be able to enjoy it to the full extent that others can.
Dont try so damn hard!! Live a little!

Havnt felt this good in a very long time. And I am amazed that it just keeps getting better.
Living, learning and growing *smiles*

Den senaste veckan har varit omtumlande, på många sätt. Känns som den senaste månaden har varit ganska omtumlande *s*
Mycket tankar som far genom huvudet, en hel del av dem väldigt trevliga. Försöker att inte ha allt för stora förhoppningar men ibland är det svårt att hålla fast tankarna, så lätt hänt att de far iväg på egen hand. Bromsar dem så gott det går. Tar en dag i taget, ett steg i taget sen får vi se vad som händer. Men kan säga så mycket som att det känns bra.

Hade det otroligt trevligt och kul i torsdagskväll när vi spontan gick till Kellys igen, Denna gången tog Jenny och jag med oss Pernilla och det gjorde bara det hela trevligare. Åt lite mat, drack lite (hrm) cider och pratade en massa. Tror Jenny och jag får göra detta till en av våra nya traditioner. Fira veckas avslut på torsdagar.
Pernilla och jag funderade även på om vi ska ta en sista minuten tripp ner till Spanien i slutet av månaden. Får se hur det blir. Jag och Jenny drar ju i september. Tompa ska med sen får vi se om det blir några fler som hänger på.
Nu har visst Micke öppnat bar där nere och tjatar ihjäl sig om att vi ska komma ner. Vem säger nej till gratis dricka ;)

I morgon fyller Jenny år men ska fira henne på onsdag istället. Jobbar på min överaskning ;)




Farligt, rent av livsfarligt enligt säkra källor *ler* men av vad jag har sett och hört så går det åt båda hållen.

Sitting here at work and thinking... There are a few things on my mind at this time but nothing to heavy just smaller things.

Been up way to late two nights in a row now but then again who would blame me *s* Some people just seem to understand things about you in a way that no one else can and the amazing thing with these people is that they dont even try it just comes naturally to them. Also nice to acctually have someone that you can talk to, really talk. Someone that thinks, has views on stuff. Someone that just dont sit there and nods and agrees to every thing you say. If I ask a question I want an answer not a question back as to what I want.
Get some opinions damn it!
Think for yourself!!
I know I'm straight forward and I say whats on my mind and I want that back. Want someone that challenges me.

Must say that I really love my new work place *smiles* Like today Mike made tea for me and Ninve and we just sat around and talked for an hour or so. laughed at the fact that something had gone wrong with the payment of my rent and all Mike got was 30 öre! Now that is cheap rent!! *lol*

Two more days of work then weekend!

Went out walking this morning in order to somewhat clear my thoughts, my mind. Ended upp spending most of the day outside in the sun by the ocean, alone, just the way I wanted it today. Had the most amazing day!
Couldnt have asked for anything better. Some alone time to collect my thoughts, sort things out and clear my mind. All went as planned.
Have realised some things in the past week. Discovered a few things about myself and about others as well.
Still have a few things that needs to be sorted but I will deal with that tonight.
Something didnt work out as I kind of hoped it would but strangely I dont feel at all upset. Not one bit. Am acctually feeling even better now than before.

My darling rock babe Catta passed thru town yesterday and I got to spend a couple of hours with her before she continued her trip home. Was not even near enough time but so much better than nothing. Miss her even more now.
Had load of fun for the short brief time we got. Managed to get some shopping done and a long lunch with a lot of chatting *s* Am thinking about maybe going down to Malmö to visit her and Marcus.

Oh and it seems like there will be two Slipknot gigs instead of just one. Plans are up for both Helsinki and Stockholm now. Am just not understanding Tampere!? How ever did that get planed?? *lol*

So much going on in my head and my life right now that I barely know left from right!

All I can say is that I made a choice on saturday and told myself to go for it, to jump out there are do what feels right. To dare a bit, or hey a lot. What do I got to loose really? Part from my sanity ;)
And all I can say that as for now I did the right thing and sunday... well amazing! Had such a great time and I give myself a big path on the back for being so brave.
Am also amazed at how easy I feel, and the most weird thing of all, how safe I feel! Am so shocked about esp that feeling. Am still struggling with myself and a lot of things are going thru my head but the over all feeling is good.

My rock babe Catta will be in town a few hours on friday and will hang a bit with her then. Damn girl moving all the way to Malmö. Miss her a lot!
Then some stuff to do at work although from this week forward I'm not working fridays! The later in the evening me gonna be the best mascot I can be ;) and damn am I good at that!!! I proved it to the point and beyond *lol*

Tomorrow laundry before heading for work and some hours of hard labour and watching Mike dance around outside my door every 35 min. That guy really growns on you after a while. Really enjoy working with him (and ofcourse Ninve and Jenny too) he brings honest and true smiles and joy to work.

Finally finished Rock of Love 2 and damn I want to marry Heather!!!