gardenofdarkness

Been a while since I went here... But much has happened in my life so havnt really had time to sitt and blogg that much.
Have a few moments over att work so i thought I might do a smaller update.

Talking about my work I have to say that I really love the new place! The people that I work with are so sweet and easy going. We talk a lot and laugh a lot and have fun. M that owns the place is a really nice guy. He is always interested in your ideas or suggestions and dont hesitate to tell you if something is great and you have done something good. He likes when you take initiative by yourself and change something. Aleays greets you with a smile in the morning.
Then we got I and A both sweet fun girls that like to babble and how fun. All made me feel more than welcome when I started here a few months ago.

Tonight after work hours A is going to have some fun with my hair and we'll see what happens hahahahah

Also spent a lot of time with M and E and there is no way you can have anything but fun when they are around. Our nights at Dubliners are legendary.
Me and E have finally started on our little project and so far it have gone great! :)

Spring is here and love is in the air!!!!

Me and P had a really nice night yesterday when J2 came to visit. Will be staying for the weekend. Hoping that J1 might stop by soon to. Would make P very happy.

Now work!

Soon it's time for vacation. We so deserved that!!
Cant wait to step out into the warm sun and just let everything go and just enjoy the moment.
Soon....

Been going back and forward about a certain thing that I wanted to do but didnt quite know how to get done... Wasnt sure how to proceed and what to do exactly. But tonight I got a push in the "right" direction and felt that I really needed to do something. It all got a bit more closer so I felt that I needed to do just do it. So I did. Didnt do it quite as I planned it to be done but almost. Just have to wait a while now and see what happens.
Have told myself I will do it twice but thats it.
Am a bit nervous actually. Didnt think I would be or that it would feel like this. Guess it has gone deeper than I thought. Good or bad I dont know...

Hoping...

My throat is still bugging me but am finally feeling a bit better. Atleast ti seems to be going in the right direction.

Amanda was a cutie and had some fun fixing my hair at work on wednesday evening. Didnt leave the salon until 11 pm. She got pretty free hands and ended up with black, orange and red. Am not complaining at all! :)

Had Sari and Sippo here for a short little visit. We went to the Volbeat concert on thursday evening and it was a great concert. They are good even if they are not among my fave bands. Had taken thursday and friday off for their visit.
On friday I went with them and Nina to the old town for some shopping and then we hung out at a really nice old pub in the old town for a few hours. Had quite a few laughs and talked a lot.
So have to tip My Mr Handsome about the squirrel and the pink scuba gear. The would be a hilarious prank to pull. Just know he'll love it!

On saturday Sari and Sippo left with the morning ferry and I had to go work for a few hours. Then spent the rest of the weekend resting hoping to get better.
You make a nice pillow ;)

Am just all smiles right now. It's amazing how good some people can really make you feel.
So very special!
*love*

Was a while ago now and not much has happened. Well thats wrong quite a lot has happened really.

Have decided to go for it with one thing I mean what can go worng really... But makes me a bit nervous.

Tried something out and it was as I guessed wrong so will ditch that right away. Seems like the creepyness has stopped to and am glad for that. Poor thing dont know what hit him I think *lol*  Innocent? Me? might look ir but it's far from the thrut. I think I should have been an actress. The oscar on this one is mine for sure.

Oh and booked another trip for this summer. The impossible has happened!! Slipknot will be playiny "my" finnish festival!! So got tickets for Ruisrock. First time in a few years of going that there are really bands that I want to see. Really want to see. Combining two of my favorite things, Finland and Slipknot. Cant get any better I think... Well it can but thats all just extra.
See if I will have gotten my new camera for then.Want to be able to take some nice shoots.

Well going to do a little more work now and hope I wont have any more (just know I will) attacks before I get home. Already had one today at work and hate it... :(

So another week is here and cant say that it's bad. Not bad at all!
Had a great weekend!
First on friday evening my cats finally came home and I spent the evening with them and they were sweet enough to keep me awake for most parts of the night. But I understand that they are a bit nervous still and not feeling at home. But alreay now after just a few days it's so much better. Manda who is supposed to be shy is just about the cuddliest cat I've ever meet!! As soon as I sitt down she comes up in my lap and my face and wants to cuddle and wants to be close at all times. She is still a bit jumpy but ti's getting better by the day.
Bella is just the little maniac that I knew she would be. Not at all afraid of anything and even tries to cuddle me feet as I'm walking. Dont work to well. Poor thing most have ADHD or something as she tires to do alla things at once often wit a very poor out come but she dont care.
Love them both to bits!

On saturday I got a very unexpected but very sweet valentines gift. Was very surprised but it made me very happy. For someone to do such a thing for me :)

Me and Pernilla went on a shopping tripp to Kungens Kurva on sundag and seemed to trigger each other into shopping *lol* but ended up buying just about what I wanted to get. A few impulse things yes but nothing too bad.
Ended the day with dinner at Heron city before we jumped in the car and went home.

Another week much more fun to look forward too!!!

I dont know wether to laugh or cry right now although I'm not sad I'm feeling really good  at the moment.

This weekend I worked a bit on saturday and my last customer for the day was Pernilla. We went out eating after I was done with her nails. Ended up going to the same place as Pernilla had a big craving for waffles *lol*
Had to rush home to her place to get the car and get to my place as I had a delivery waiting for me :) and that was a surprise. Then we spent the evening watching a movie and planing for summer. I want to be able to take a real vacation this year.  Still cant believe the girl never seen Braveheart before!!!!!
I have a week at my parents place to look forward to soon and really longing for that. Realised I will be there for my mums birthday and thats nice as I've not been able to celebrate her on her day for years.

Got my new sofas yesterday evening and they are so comfy and nice. Starting to look just like I want it at home now. A bit painful to have to sit on the floor sunday evening but hey it was one day and there is still some padding on this ass ;)

And YAY for the fact that Sari is soon coming over!! Miss her so much and there is so much I need to talk to her about. Cant wait to have my finnish twin over here!!

On sunday i realised it's not just my imagination...
There is something with people on the other side of the street...

So third day at my new workplace and I'm all smiles still. Reallly like it here and everyone is very very nice. Also fells nice that there is constantly people around and some action going on. AND I ican see the street and all the people passing by. A bit hard to get used to not having so much space at one place but more spread out but nothing I cant handle

On monday I was at the cat shelter again and had to cancel one of the cats as there was concern the two wouldnt work together. So I had to find a new one suited for my little fuzzy ball. Found a little girl that still looks like a kitten even though she is over a 2 years old and she is just as energetic! Very cuddly and cute. So booked her and I believe that she is much more suited for Manda.
Will go and visit them again tonight after work.

Yesterday Ulrika was here. Fixed her nails and got her some very nice looong hair extensions.
It's great to work in a hair salon as M lets me use one of the salon chairs for when I got extensions. He was impressed with the work. It's so nice that they are totally ok with me doing them here. Yay for my new workplace :)

So had a great time at the cat shelter this wednesday with Mia and I booked two pretty and adorable cats. Went to see them again on friday and will go again tomorrow. They have this rule, which I find very good, that you have to visit a cat atleast two times during a period of one week before they deliver it to you home. If it is a shy/scared cat, like in my case, you have to visit atleast 4 times during a period of two weeks. They also advice you to bring something from your home like a blanket or a towel to leave withy the cat so it will get used to you and to your smell.
Looking forward to seeing my little beauties again tomorrow.

Also move all my stuff at work today with a little help from Pernilla. Will do the final unpacking on monday before my first customer. Really curious as to how it will be on the first day at the new place. Looking forward to it.
after the move we went around town a bit before getting some dinner. Become a tradition to go out eating once a week and during that time go thru all that has happened during the week. Ended up sitting at the restaurant for almost 4 hours.

Time for sleep...

Damn everything is going on full speed right now!!
Who loaded up on the rocket fuel??
So it's time for yet another move but one of another kind. Really looking forward to this! Going to be loads of fun and I think it will be an experience that is just all positive. Pernilla is helping me out on saturday and then we'll go out to eat later in the evening.

First week I dont know about, second week was a negativ four and this week a negative two. Which was a surprise as I expected nothing do to the time of month. Feels soooo good right now.
It's fun how easy everything feels after such a short while. Didnt think it would. Been such a good girl ;)

Tomorrow me and Mia are going to the Cat home/shelter to have a look as I cant take it to be without cats no more. Been a feeling thats been rowing over the years since I moved down here. And seeing as I can help some poor cats out and to a better life I'm all for it.  Had a look at the page and found some that seem nice but will look around tomorrow. Not going to take any kittens though.

Got a vacation booked! Finally!!!

Had a wonderful day!!
Part from only getting about 4 hours sleep as my insomnia is bad right now.
Went in to town just after 11 to meet up with Petra, an old friend, that I havnt seen in about 10 !!! years. We walked around (not really knowing where we where going) for a couple of hours before sitting down at a coffe place. Constantlly talking for all those hours. Petra was going to meet up with another friend but sompletely for got about it.
Had such a great time. Talked old memories, updated each other on whats happened andlaughed a lot.
We will keep in touch for sure from now on. Didnt relised that I missed her as much as I did until now.

Also finally bought the New ROck boots that I've wanted and been looking at for a few months. tried them out this evening and they are very hot!
Also went and picked up the other new boots that I ordered.

Went home for a few hours before Pernilla came by and picked me up and we went out eating. After that we just drove around while talking. Ended up at my place for a few hours and she just went home.

Oh and my neighbours music taste SUCKS!!! Really sucks!!

Time for bed!

So I made a decision last night and have some very tough things to do today. One have to wait until tomorrow but there is one that has to be done today but I have no idea how I'm going to do it and I hate hurting people!!! Damn it dont feel to good but I have to think about myself first and in this case thats the most important thing. But that dont make it easier at all.

Am looking forward to parts of the change very very much but there are some parts that I dont like. But you have to take the good with the bad.

Better get some more work done...

It finally feels like the days are once again falling into place and the week has 7 days and ends with a saturday and a sunday. Always gets so messed up during long holidays like this and am also a pro at totaly turning the day around.

Went out eating with Pernilla last night and had a great time. Was a while since I lughed so hard. We just kept Saying things the wrong way although it sounded perfect in our heads. Also came to the conclusion that we have a very very different taste in men or when it comes to Pernilla boys ;P
I want the manly vikings she goes for the preppy clean cut boyish type. Yuck if you ask me but then again it will never ever happen that we get to fight over someone.

And old firend of mine might come down to see me within 2 weeks. Havnt seen her for atleast 10 years I think so that will be fun.
Am also hoping that Sari will get things sorted with school so she and Sippo can come over in february. Miss her so much! She is coming over in March as we are going to see Volbeat together. Also planing to go over to FInland soon. Am 100% sure I will go there for summer but would be great to go during spring to. But as I'm also planing a trip to Spain and I have to work to it will be a bit tight.

On monday I booked two fullday sittings with my tattooartist for march and april and cant wait!! We are still working on the design but just know it will be kick ass.

So it's a new year with new opportunities and new andventures and I just cant wait for it all to get started. As a matter of fact I think it has already began...

Went upp north to visit my parents for christmas and had a very nice time. Loved the fact that there was a lot of snow as the past christmases (new word?) have been lacking snow badly. Didnt get the chance to do snowangels but threw snow at both mum and dad at several occations. Hihihihihihi
My brother came over for a record time of almost 10 hours on christmas eve. He also bought the new Arn movie and had us watch it and pointed out were in the movie he was. So proud of my little brother. He kicked some serious swedish AND danish ass in the movie and also managed to get his ass kicked a few times even by the man, Arn, himself. Although got a bit confusing to see him on both sides at the same time. Yay for movie magic!

On the second day of christmas I went over to my cousin who lives in the hours next to my parents and spent a few hours there just babbling. Had a really great time with her to bad we kind of fell out of contact for a few years and it sucks that we dont live closer as I would love to do this more often.

Managed to be back for less than 24 h before my throat started hurting and on monday I got a fever. So now it will be the sofa for me for the new years. But dont mind as I dont like the hysteria and the panic that there is about the "perfect new years party". Dont get it. So much nicer to just spend it with some colse friends over a good dinner and laughs.

Think I hear the sofa calling.....

Sitting at my other workplace at Odenplan and fiddling with my new minilaptop. Damn the keyboard is a bit small and I keep hitting the wrong keys. But it's only for work that I use this one.

Realised today that I need to get started on the buying christmas presents part. So far I've just bought loads of things for myself hehehehe
For ex I couldnt resist these headphones (need some foe traveling when I watch movies and such on my laptop.



Just hope I will get them on time before I go but was promised that. Waiting for five other packages with stuff that I ordered at the moment so it's christmas for me!!

Thinking about giving L a call as I'm going to my old flat to pick up a few things tonight after work. Could maybe go over and visit. Been a while now as I've been so busy and he had problems with his back poor guy. Will think about it. Would be nice to see him but have to much to do that I dont know if I got the time.

The little one is still haunting my thoughts and I cant figure out why. There was a time a few years ago as he did the same but not like this, ever. Think I need to take a trip over the pond and visit Sari and see if there is some cure for this. If there is one she will know of it for sure hihihihi Already think I know what her answer might be.
Been going back in my thoughts quite a lot lately.
Damn I miss Glasgow!

Had a pretty eventful day at work.
I have said it before and I will say it again and I want everyone to know how thankful I am for the fact that I must have just about the sweetest and best customers in the world!.
Was working at odenplan today and it was very nice.
Had lunch with Erika and then spent the rest of the day just working nonstop.

Spent some time with Pernilla yesterday and she told me she saw J and apperantly scared the shit out of him. He tried to get away from her but didnt work to well. Well sadass put himself in this situation. Sadly he isnt even man enought to stand up for what he did and take it like a man. Nope tried to cover up lies with more lies... Sad little idiot hahahahahahaa
Hope he learned a lesson.

Been writing a lot in my other blogg lately. Need that right now...

It's been a long monday and I think I might just head to bed early today, will see. Have to get up early tomorrow to go to the doctor. HAve to do some test and they are looking into things as to see what might be wrong. Been given some half answers as to what it might be and even though I want an answer I'm not to happy about then having to be on meds for the rest of my life. That would suck!

Was wondering why I asked someone if they were interested as I know myself I'm not. Not at this point. Love hanging out with the person and we have so much fun but more... No not from my side, atleast not now. Therefor I felt kind of bad when the answer from you was yes... After "spying" on you for about 5 years thinking you are damn nice it all kind of faded after getting to know you. I kind of know the reasons why. You are a great guy but not the one for me, sorry.

Went past my old place today, felt a bit weird...

I wonder what my dreams are trying to tell me...

Another week has passed and so quickly! It all goes so fast!

Mostly been working this past week. Both at work and at home with thekitchen but it's almost done now. Had a smaller set back as IKEA gave me the wrong table!! But they have promised to fix it all for me.
Kitchen is looking gooooood. The whole flat is looking great!!

So on friday evening my brother came passing thru town and needed a place to stay so ofcourse I as the sweet sister I am let him use my sofa. We sat and talked for a while about all kinds of things. Had some time with him in the morning to before he had to rush to the train back north.
THen my parents came for a visit. They are home for chirstmas and new years from Spain and wanted to see my new flat before they continued on the journey up north. Hung out some at my flat then went to town for diner before they left.
I spent a couple of hours in town by myself shopping. I like to shop on my own :)

The evening was spent on the sofa. The first evening I had since I moved in when I just did nothing and just relaxed! Sooooooo nice!!!

Am right now waiting for Maria, my hairdresser to come over....