gardenofdarkness

Where are everything? Where did my monday go? And what ever happened to tuesday as I today realised tis' wednesday? It is all passing so fast right now but I guess it's a bit as they say. When you are having fun time flies... Almost feel like the summer is over and then it hasnt really started yet.
Already have quite a lot planed so far.
Going home to see my parents next weekend I think. Dreading to get the question "Whos Leif?" *s* as rumours have a way of traveling fast even in Spain and apperantly someone was talking a lot on saturday hihihihi
But I dont mind, I dont mind at all.
Have agreed to do this and I want to do it, no questions about it *smiles*

Someone disapointed me big time, after giving som much a tiny small favour was apperantly to much for me to ask. Although made me realise that maybe it was for the best, maybe i was just a dream after all. Nothing that could never really be. So maybe I'm better off like this. Dont know, time will tell.

Got an "love you" today from someone really special and it made me smile and warmed my heart.

And soon Sari is coming!!! Should really send out a warning! ;)

Älsklingens födelsedag idag!! Grattis på dig hjärtat!!
Hoppas bara att du vaknar upp efter festen igår som jag bara kan gissa mig till inte var nådig hihihihi
Hoppas även du får en underbar födelsedag och önskar jag hade kunna vara där.

After just two days I'm restless and I take that as a good sign, that this is the right thing. Looking forward to tomorrow just hope that I healed enough *s* Today it will be only housework on the list of things to do.

Have a few thoughts that I'm going to write down and post here but thats for later when I got more time...

Been a bit lazy with the writing lately but there has been a lot going on so havnt really had the time or motivation. Started one of my little projects last weekend and it's amazing how much can really change in just one week. It's all for the better and I am feeling so great! Wondering why I didnt start this earlier but I guess I wasnt ready then. But am now and loving it.

My "älskling" got attacked last night but am happy as he got away with just a broken lip and a bruised ego. Am so sad that I cant be there for his big birthday on sunday. Just hope my little present will make up for a bit of that ;) And had a bit in on the party as I helped out a bit with some of the stuff.
We decided on moving to Thailand a few days ago *hihihihi*
Miss him!

How weird it is when the bad energy leaves your surroundings and then suddently loads of good things happen *smiles* That negativ energy and evil vibes destroyed so much.

Am going insane on this thing also called my computer.
It's clear that I need to get a new one and that soon as this comp will die on me any day now. Have to look around to see what I can do...

Now on to enjoying the sun :)

Finally weekend!! One that I'm not working or traveling or doing anything whatsoever!
Was planing to continue with the renovation on my flat but since the weather is so nice I dont know if that is on top of my list right now.

Decided to make my Bilddagok public again, if anyone is interested...

http://murderdollie.bilddagboken.se

Better get som dinner now...

The more I talk to you the more I see what more is behind that smile and the more I see a person that is even more complicated yet so likable. You hide it well for what reason I do not know, yet. I have my suspicions...
We are a lot a like yet very different.
Sharing a big dream...

Talking about dreams *smiles* Both are serious, just have to figure out how to make this happen.
Creating something perfect isnt that easy but we got the tools for it *L*

My mind is still filled with so many thoughts, some good some bad. Some of these good thoughts are growing, making me smile, making the darker ones fade slightly.
Then there is THE thought still lingering...

At this moment there are a bit to many thoughts in my head. To much going on in there for me to be able to sort it out and make any sense of anything. it's times like these that that off button is so much wanted. Just being able to switch everything off for just a moment or two (or a day or two) and then use that moment to build up some energ much needed to handle everything.

Planned a surprise for "Daddy L" in the comming weeks as he is finally going to turn grown up (might get hit for that comment). Hey 40 is no age and then when he, like me, is blessed with remarable and wonderful genes there is nothing to fear. He was sweet enough to think we planned to go down there (Spain) for a surprise visit. However much I would have loved that there is no time. But will send him something to play with in the mean time *lol*
Maybe I should buy a little jar to send with all the stuff... ;)
Am looking forward to the reaction to the "stuff"

Have been thinking more than usual about a friend of mine, someone that has it hard, hoping that things will get better soon and that the bad luck will be over for now. Got a life sign yesterday and it made me smile but also sad as I dont like seeing someone in that much trouble.
You know I like you and care about you...

Dont have enough concentration to be writing right now...