gardenofdarkness

It's funny (although funny is so not the right word to use now) how things can change so fast. How words that only takes seconds to speak can have such impact on so much. How it can flip your world upside down in an instant.
How love suddently can be mixed with hate. No not hate, I dont hate, I still love something that makes it even harder.
To be lied to by the one you love. Knowing the feelings are real, damn are they real but there suddently is no chance. For a part of the dream has been a lie. A lie that may not ever be forgiven.
A smal little "no" was really a "yes" and that just changed everything.

I have to live wit the fact that I've done something I swore I would never do. Although I'm the last one to blame here. I have done absolutely nothing wrong, more than to trust you. You are still so very special to me but right now I cant look at you.
One moment I was the happiest I've been in such a long time, then "Never again"...
Dont matter if it not my fault, if all the blame is on you, I'm still crushed.
You said you were sorry, wanted to be the one that comforted me, make me smile again. I'm sorry but you killed that smile and it was yours. You had it but you killed it.

"Besitos mi niña linda" words that I will never forget...

I'm the angel you say, then why am I being punished and not the bad ones? Apperantly being good dont pay off in this world.

Thank you SC for letting me rant and for dragging me out in the rain, I needed that so much.
And Sari for making me laugh when all I wanted to do is keep crying. The hurt didnt go away but the cold did.
And to you... *silence* *besos*